sending all my love

I hate you two.
I hate you both individually, and together.
I hate your past and history.
I hate the secrets you keep from me.
I hate the exclusion you, girl, put on me.
I hate that she took him to our places with the things I gave him.
You sly wily bitch.
Trying to sneak up on and into our secret spots that I will never be able to reach again.
When is enough enough?
You have and have always had him
Even when we called each other mine
Why should you have respect for the sacredness of love and trust when it doesn't serve you?
Your answer is none
Sleep in a bed with him right next to me and show me who is boss
You are boss of no one but your own pathetic stabs at control.
Way to go.
Gold metal to you my friend
You've won at killing my happiness
Thanks for that
Don't give me any pity please
All I wanted was your kindness but you had none to spare, other plans in mind.
A foe with honor would have at least warned their prey of their intentions
Do you have any of that?
I know and have always known there are things about you and him
 that you have never and will never tell me
Do you realize what a horrible feeling it is to know you are in the dark
and your "friend" holds the key to the light
but won't give it to you?
You may not understand this,
But the unknown always is worse than the known
(don't you know this?)
But you don't know
And you don't care
Because it doesn't serve you
A very warm fuck you to you too then.
Torturing me with words and images of things I will never do.
Fuck you.
Fuck you girl for breaking both my hearts
One for him and one for you.
You're such a bastard, but no one ever tells you about it.
Everyone just keeps blowing gold smoke up your ass
I think you think you are the best
And have internalized all the praise to believe all the hype
that you are above the laws of love and good conscience.
So with all my heart I wish you a very warm and full fuck you for the pain you are causing
and continue to cause both of my hearts.
One for him which you destroyed from the beginning by sowing the poisonous seeds of jealousy you never tried to dispel with comforting words
Instead obscurity was your game
I bet you were hoping for it to end
all along
congratulations then
You won at homewrecking
And for my other heart
The one for you which I held most dear
Now you are sand,
Blowing in the wind
Grains that will never come back and cannot be resown
You threw me so casually away
I was surprised it was so easy for you given all we've been through
And that I've given to you
But I shouldn't have been
given your history of dropping people like flies when they no longer serve your entertainment
When are you truly there for others when they are not at their best?
I'll tell you though I know you won't listen
You are in the wind
You leave broken people high and dry
The love you once gave so freely was actually completely conditional
Thank you for showing me what true friendship isn't like
You knew I was broken
I apologized for being that way
I swore to give you all I could
to be better and I honored my word
But that means nothing to you
Because again, what and who doesn't serve you, no matter how much they once did for you and want to.mend things are useless
And useless isn't your thing
Of course you get what you don't deserve
Happiness and light and love all the time, regardless of how sad everyone else feels
You dole out addictive attention
like giving candy to babies
And you wonder why they cry when you take it away?
You cheat the system of karma on a daily basis
But always escape what is your due
I hope someday it will find you
And you will know the experience
Of a broken heart
what it feels like to be dropped,
like you have done me
Thanks for the torture, friend.
Thank you for breaking my heart time and time again
A feat for sure from the pieces it already lays in.
My deepest, warmest sentiments
of fuck you,
my dearest "friend".